- March 31st, 2011
Why anything is good enough, I have spent nearly my whole life thinking Im not good enough fo anything, Im not smart enough, pretty enough, tall enough, skinny enough; im always average, when people expect so much from me. sometimes I hate myself, sometimes I hate this world, specially one person that has made me feel nothing all my life, the saddest thing is that, that person should motivate me, cheer me up, make me feel special, but instead he always has made me feel like I worth nothing, because hes always right, his ideas are the best ones, his opinion is the only one that matters. I feel so bad for having all this recentment toward him. I never got why my mom havent kicked him to the curb, he s such a bad husband, Im not suppose to talk about that cause quote "aint my problem, that s something between them". but you have no idea how much it affects me, hes been unfaithful to her so many times that i cant count them with my two hands, and it sure has affected me to the point that I never had a boyfriend, ever, im conviced that man are all the same heartless motherfuckers. this is my first entry here, have so many thing to say but im lacking of words, english is not my native language.
20years all girl afraid of love, cause men are assholes